City in Motion

I know that its been a long time since I have posted anything new to this thing but in the spirit of turning over a new page I thought I would ctach everyone up on whats been happening in my life . So really its been about 8 or so months since I have updated and my life has been crazy !!! I traveled . I went to mexico for the first time and managed to get myself into an ocean pen with a shark , and I also made it back to Utah to see some of my most favorite people in the entire world . I moved .. again . I swear , since my mom passed away its like I can't seem to find a home , I think I have moved more times in the last 2 years then I have my entire life . I got a position at work . so after a year and a bit I decided to finally take the plunge and get a part time position at work ( mostly for the beifets but hey ) , sometimes I feel likes it more stress then its worth , but for the most part its been great . and finally ... I GOT A BOYFRIEND <3 I think that this is probably the biggest change in my life , over all its been an amazing experience , we have seen alot of ups and downs and shared in alot of loving and silly moments as well as some not so fun moments , I am a true and firm believer that relationships take work .. hard work and dedication from both parties , I think you have to make the choice on a daily basis to not give up when things are hard but rather fight that much harder to keep them , I know that with Chris I have found someone to fight my battles with and to keep me grounded when I start to let things get to crazy in my life . I am so proud of the man that he has become in the months since we have started dating and I am even more excited to see the person that he becomes in the future . Life is a rollercoaster ride , and I am slowly learning to just embrace it and enjoy the ride . XOXOX Katelyn

Life's an Adeventure

So I recently traveled to Utah to see some of my favorite people and, I decided to have a blog post of some of my favorite moments ,so I really hope you enjoy :)

My trip was full of lots of laughter, some tears, some stress but all in all , it reminded me how incredibly grateful I am to have the friends and support that I do , its true what they say home is were the heart is and Utah has my heart :) XOXOXO Katelyn

God Blessed the Broken Road

In life we fall , we brake and we for the most part get back up .
But sometimes even though we stand back up we carry  a little piece of that with us , the sadness , the sorrow and the heartache of our decisions and the ones that people make around us and that we can't change .

In my life I have spent a lot of time being a people pleaser and a door mat and getting frustrated when it turned out the same but I learnt " if you always do what you've always done , you'll always get what you always got " .
So in the last few weeks I have started doing things for me , living one day at a time and trying not to let the imperfections of others bring me down , it's not easy and sometimes I make a slip up and get grumpy , but looking ahead at the bigger pictures makes me so incredibly happy .
 
In my life I have thought that I didn't deserve happiness because of my past and the choices that I made , I spent so much of my energy trying to make other people happy or sabotaging my own happiness along the way  .

But a funny thing happened lately , I let my guard down for the first time in a very long time , completely down , I just let myself be and feel , I didn't think about my past or about the mistakes I made , nor about how I didn't deserve to be happy , I just lived in the moment .
For the first time in my life I saw something I wanted and I went after it , kind of an odd feeling but I can at least say now that I have no regrets , for the first time in my life I can say that I finally feel free , like my past hasn't defined me or will keep me from the things that I want ... and don't worry my list is already long .

I feel so blessed to have the friends that I do and the support that I do , I feel even more blessed to know that I have a father in heaven who never feels ashamed of me and who will have enough love to get me through even my darkest day and I feel so grateful that I know what my future is capable of and that there is no limit to the happiness I can and will have . 


XOXO Katelyn

Lost in Internet Land

I am currently on day 2 of being sick and going a tad stir crazy , I am really not used to having any sort of extended time off ( outside of the 1 or 2 days off at a time ) and even those drive me batty , I am not sure how I am going to weather my vacation .
Today , I really wanted to update my blog and add some stuff and in order to do that I had to find something with a number on it to update my Mormon.org profile so this turned into me deciding to clean my closet , I then dumped all contents on my bed and while going through a box I found ear phones for my phone , so I was like " MUST TRY THESE OUT "  so then I called up a friend and did that for an hour and still had piles of binders and paper and text books scattered on my bed , after my closet was all sorted again , I still hadn't found what I was looking for so I proceeded to tare apart my book case finally finding what I was looking for FINALLY only to find out that it didn't have on it the number I needed .
So I gave up on that all together , I then decided to sit down and budget my upcoming vacation and blog , well that was 3 hrs ago and I finally am sitting down and typing this out , why do you ask did it take me 3 hours to write a blog , well my friends I got lost in the lovely land of the inter-web, to be more exact YouTube .

We all have been there before , we log onto study or plan or write a paper and get distracted doing everything but .
Where it be YouTube , Pintrest or even Blogger . choose your poison because I am sure you like me could get lost for hours doing everything but what you set out to do .
Today it started off with the Harlem Shake  vs Gagnam Style , then proceeded to more Harlem Shaking and that morphed into Epic Rap Battles of History and from there I ended up on Jenna Marbles and then poof 3hrs of my life gone and this isn't  even the first time when I was in school I literally had to keep myself away from the computer during crunch time or I'd waste copious hours on Facebook just stalking peoples pages .
I wrote awhile ago about the difference between now and when I was growing up and how stark the contrast is , and its so true we now have all this technology and some of it truly is wonderful and a blessing and on the other hand it is also a curse , we spend so much time " Lost in Internet Land " or  just technology itself , with smart phones and being able to connect to almost anything right there in your hand , it seems we are loosing touch with reality a tad and I am guilty .
This morning my cousin and I were talking and I got a text and ignored her for the few minutes it took me to answer that text , it wasn't on purpose but it happens and more then most people realize .
Have you ever been hanging with your friends , whether it be at dinner or just as a group and they seem to be more invested in there phones , then you or the group ?? I am can admit I am a guilty of this .
There is a new game that has surfaced and is making its rounds on social media and I have played it a few times and want to challenge you to play with your friends as well  , its called the phone stacking game and here is how it works .
( The example I am going to use is , if you are out to dinner with friends but you can adjust the rules to apply to yourself )

 Before you order your food have everyone stack there phones face down in the center of the table , and start the game there is only one rule , the first person to check there phone before the meal is over has to pay for everyone else's dinner :) its a super fun game and it makes for actual quality time together verses everyone playing on there phones .


Katelyn XOXO

The Unattractive Cry

Do you ever have those days where no matter how hard you try and smile and pretend like everything is hunky dory ....its really not and then you end up laying in bed and sobbing like a child and listening to all time low or a day to remember , I am pretty sure I am not alone in this every girl has this moment and then when its all said and done you get up with mascara running all up over your face and snot dripping from your nose and maybe even a little bit of bed head , also I am sure I am not the only one that looks like a hot mess after an emoition bender this my friends is the Unattractive cry .... 

Now most girls will tell you that movies lie ... all the time disney makes love look so amazing and whimsicle ( probably not how you spell that lol ) and then there's the notebook and a whole host of other movies that make love seem lovely but lets be frank more often then not we girls get our hearts a little broken by these cute boys who toy with our hearts and then we cry and eat ice cream and listen to sad songs or watch sad movies , and in these movies sometimes girls get there hearts broken and the charactor crys ... it usually looks like this .


she's all heart broken and teary .... this is a lie .. when I cry I do not look pretty well at least not all the time , this my friends is something I wish I could look like when I cried .
more often then not I look like this or

I mean I am not as glamours but you get the idea ...
my point to this rant is sometimes in soicety we are made to feel like crying is a form or sign of weakness but sometimes its ok to cry and actually warented ... and lets not hide these facts lets embrace them snot bubbles in all  .
now I am aware that this prob won't happen but it was worth a shot ...so in the fairness of my rant I will say this ..

TODAY I CRIED HARD ...
 and it was neither graceful pretty or beautiful it was a straight up cry and I felt so much better after today I realized that after a year of my life spent working hard to let someone into my life and trust with everything I had that , that person really didn't deserve my love or warrent my time anymore ... it hurts sure right now but I know in the end it will hurt alot less someone told me today "Well all I would say is be careful with your heart, its a precious thing that no one should take advantage of "
he was right and that's something hard to understand as woman we sometimes fall hard and just throw caution to the wind and give all we have and sometimes when that perosn doesn't do the same it hurts more than we will ever really show ...
but someday somehow there will be  a prince that will love us for who we are flaws bumps scars and bruises all of it :) and thats the best part of life that movies sometimes fudge up a little sometimes we gotta kiss alot of frogs to find our own true frog

XOXO Katelyn

Need for ......SLEEP

This morning I woke up like I always do , my body is so used to being up at 6 am that I wake up at 545 no matter what , and then there are those impossibly annoying times when my bladder wakes me up at 5 literally screaming at me PEE ,  and for the next hour I lay there fighting with myself to not get up and just hold it for another hour , Please tell me I am not the only one like this ?

I remember being a kid and saying " all I want to do is grow up and be an adult and have freedom "  my mom always warned me that being an adult is not all its cracked up to be ... well mom you are correct its not , I find I am  more chained down to responsibilities then I  was as a child , I have a job and bills to pay , groceries to buy and then on top of it I now have to make my own dinner , this is a sad truth to admit but sometimes I am so exhausted after work that I eat crackers for dinner and call it a night , I have become one of those people I used to look at in my teens and go EEEEEWWWWWW  I  will never be her .

Well I am her , and I am not ashamed to admit that after work and the gym you can usually find me in my jammies curled up on the couch drinking my tea and watching some horribly addicting television series or reading a book , this to me is glamour , this to me is having a life .
My job tends to be on the more stressful and physically and emotionally draining jobs , I heard long term care and palliative care once described as the last stop on the life train and truly it is , I got into nursing because I love people and I like to help and have this maternal nature that I just need to take care of everyone and everything and so to me Nursing fit like a glove , and I won't lie sometimes I look at my choice and go WHAT THE HECK WHERE YOU THINKING ?  but most of the time I remember that after the long days and dealing with verbal and sometimes physical abuse and all the other things that come along with a job in the health care industry, I put a smile on someone's face and my own .
Now you are probably wonder what all this has to do with my title ....
Well , if you are like me I tend to do everything but sleep when I have to , whether it be clean or read or sometimes getting lost in the pintrest world until 3 am and then trying desperately to get to sleep before my alarm , its like a never ending game of sleep tag and I never win .
I always sit at work right before the end of my shift and go, Ok I am going to go home have a shower and then take a nap , and then its like real life smacks me in the face as soon as I walk in the door , The dog needs to go out and the house needs cleaning and I need to cook dinner and pack a lunch and still fit the gym in there somewhere and then there is little things like errands that get caught up in the mix and then I look at the clock and its ten at night ., and if you are like me at all I can't just climb into bed and just sleep  ( I always threaten I will just crawl into bed in my clothes , but its just a lie ) I have to get my jammies on brush and floss my teeth and wash my face put lotion on , then I need to pray and get settled into bed , I usually try and read some scriptures before sleep and then I have to let my brain turn off so this itself takes another  hour or so , and then there is the time it takes to fall asleep which is a job in itself .
In all reality I think sleep is something we can almost always  short change ourselves on , we try and cram as much stuff into our days as humanly possible and forgot just how important it truly is to sleep .
For me sleep is a time to recharge and give my body a much needed break  , but as you can tell I tend to forgot that I need to sleep to function as silly as it sounds , its also something that you can't play catch up with , if you miss 5 or 6 hours of sleep you can't add 5 or 6 hours on the next night and call it even , my doctor always told me that sleep was a necessary evil , and that to live a long life it is important to eat well , stay active , drinks lots of water and SLEEP :)
So hopefully this has inspired you to go and grab your jammies and crawl into bed and sleep cause lets face it  YOU DESERVE IT !!!! ( and life with still be just as busy tomorrow )

XOXO Katelyn

“I've always envied people who sleep easily. Their brains must be cleaner, the floorboards of the skull well swept, all the little monsters closed up in a steamer trunk at the foot of the bed.”
― David Benioff, City of Thieves


 

The countdown and A new beginning

Once upon a time , I had a blog and then I forgot the password and my email was compromised and I couldn't reset my  password soooo this is my new beginning and I  am rather excited for a fresh start , so part of this post is going to introduction into my life and the second is going to be a countdown to the the things I am excited for coming up  .

Ok first things first , big thanks to andsamsam.blogspot.com for helping me pick a new name !!!!!
So a little about me , I am Katelyn and I am in my early 's 20's ( isn't it really exciting ) and I work in health care in long term care to be exact , its hard in a lot of ways and rewarding in a lot of other ways , I can say at the end of my day that I have made a difference ( or at least I hope I can ) and when I feel like poop , I can always leave work with a smile on my face , it truly is a rewarding gift  .
I  really enjoy the outdoors and everything that comes with it , hiking , swimming , camping .
I also recently caught the travel bug and now have this ridiculous urge to travel , so this is something that I will be doing a lot more of in the future .

The count down is on ...
19days till I start my vacation
21 days till my big sister has another baby ( sigh a boy , I have 3 nephews already )
25 days till I am on a plane to see on of my best friends graduate university

its been a tough few years and something I am always reminded of ( more so now then before ) is how short life is , how little time we spend on this earth , and how precious our time is .
I want to be able to look back at my life in 70 years and be proud of the choices I made and the friends I had , yes we make mistakes and we fall but we get back up again and learn to move forward , the trick is to learn from your mistakes the first time and then get back up ( sometimes I am guilty of not learning the first time ) , but that's the point is to live and learn and love , because at the end of the day the person we are today is not the same person we will be tomorrow and in 20 years we are constantly growing and  changing and becoming something even better then we had or ever could except !!!


Katelyn XOXO